this morning i
woke up different
new born
fresh off the high of last night
a rainbow of carbs over Spode and the tightest bump-side-hugs
spoiled beyond words by 12 angel sisters i don't deserve
then this morning
there was a newness
a christmas cactus blooming in the back of my mind
a yes energy,
we're-having-a-baby-energy –
after finishing the math homework and sending the people to school –
i brewed red raspberry leaf tea
and ate three dates
while nate
pumped up the birth ball
(on which i am bouncing as i type)
we talked about names
i ate three more dates
i ate three more dates
walked about 20 laps around the family room
re-read the paper by dr. greger on dates for shorter labor
10 days left
there's something about that visual that makes me feel
sure
and ready
and capable
we're having a baby.
we're having a baby!
we know the name of this baby
we're manifesting a good birthday
and it won't be long now
it
feels
like
christmas
